so raise your glass if you are wrong in all the right way,all my underdorgs!!!we will never be never be!!!

like they said, human are not perfect and we are full of imperfection.don't let me start about my outlook imperfections, i have tons and tons of them!and i'll be happy to list it if you want me to.

anyway,right now i am going to talk about my personallity imperfection and the most bad part that i don't like about my self.And yes!i do realise whenever i do or say it, but to fix it,.hmmm...nah.not that simple..and no!!this isn't a post for you all to feel simpathy or to make me feel better about myself.
the reason i do this is because i just want to write it.simple isn't it??why make things complicated???

so,i confess, i am a fucking egoist person.
whenever something went wrong i always blame it on someonelse!why?? because it is much much more easier to blame on someone than on myself.and if someonse is blaming me, i blame them back!hah!!!take that!!
for example: i forgot to turn the heater off before i went out and when i get back, my sister was like
"you didn't turn the ac off!!now the bills is going to get expensive"
and i'll be like "you didn't remind me"
lol wtf???she wasn't even there and it was all my fault!!but i will never ever accept and say to her that it was my bad!!!!lol

i am also a very stubborn person, i will always stand up on my own opinion.i will listen to you all of course!!i will listen!but i will just listen to you.i'll be nodding but still i'll be thinking "hmmm,.,that's right but naah~"lol!!!and i will do anything in my power to make you think otherwise.why??because i loove debating!!it is soo boring if you all have the same oppinion as mine!!i wanted to be a lawyer when i was in high school so much that i love debating.

i am also a very serious person that i can't even differentiate between jokes or not.even if you laugh afterward i will take it seriously!!and i am kind of the annoying person whom for example if we are in the same group studies or presentation i will become sort of the leader to the group (even if no one agrees to it)and will kick your ass to make a perfect presentation!!that's how obsessed i am!!

whenever i want something i will do anything in my power to get it!!and whenever i want to do something i will do it like snap!!right away!and i will do it all night long if i need to!!until i finish this i probably cannot sleep!!

i am a very good liar!well sometimes my familly get through my lies but when my mind is made and i concentrate on the lies!!i will do many things for that lie to not be caught.i will imagine what would happen and do many things to deceive them.lies need commitment.

like i said in my previous post.i envy everyone that i know and i will probably continue to do so.

i am lazy as hell!!i can do nothing for the day,and just be on my bed with my laptop.heaven~

isn't it much easier to just embrace and accept your imperfection and just live with it?!?and if you wanna change to a better personnality than i will surely support you!!

guess that'a about it then.tell me guys about what you don't like about yourself in the right pink chatbox.it would be really appreciated

happy birthday to my childhood bestfriend!!happy birthday!!

happy 20th ceremony!!for everyone who is turning 20th in japan!hope you had a blast one eventhough it's raining snow!!


have a good day and may you all keep being imperfection bad ass guys!!

hey guys~how y'all doing!!as you may know or not know i already wrote about jealousy before,it was more about jealousy and my teacher.but in this post i want to talk more about jealousy and me myself and i.
as i said before,being jealous is totally a normal human behaviour. and i get constantly jealous to everything everytime.lol.just kidding,but seriously (yeah i love ryan higa) teehee!!

anyway,here are some situations,people and what am i jealous to.
i am jealous to
-people taller than me (what did you eat?!)
-people who don't need to work for their living!!
-people who can buy branded bags and stuff with their parent's money.fuck!!
-girls who have big and round boobs (how can mine be like yours?!)
-people who has glowing white skin (tell me what product are you using!)
-korean people who has nooo pimple!!!and their skins are flawless as fuck!!
-girls who have skinny and long feet!!whyyy goood!!!
-couples who are being lovey dovey in front of me!!diiieeee!!!
-people who can sing really well!
-kids who don't need to have responsability and can do everything that they want with no consequences
-creative people
-people who eat a lot but don't get fat!fuck you!
-my boyfriend's friends weither it's a guy or a girl
-manggaka
-people who have cool parents and is not strict
-people who are funny

thats some of them ~i've got a bunch more,but i'm not crazy as to put all of them in here (i am already crazy enough to even write them)

after reading the above i realised that it's more closer to envy than jealousy.oh well,let's leave it like that coz i am a super lazy persone.

anyway~it's okay to envy other people because humans are full of imperfections and complex.and it's a natural feelings.so if you have never felt like that,think again.are you really human?!and if you are you don't have a heart then!!die heartless!!!!(yeah i love playing kingdom hearts)

i realised that people are reading my post more lately,i know because i am stalking you all!!mwahahahhahah!!!
so,i will really love you all my angels to spend a little of your precious time to write comments or the pink chat box on the right.to share on whom you are envy and on what.so that i wouldn't feel alone and lonely T_T

hope you have all a good day,and keep being envy!

hellooow everybodeehhh!!!hope you had a great holiday and it's time for you all to get your ass up and getback to your fucking daily routine again!!bwahahahaha(evil laugh)

anyway, back in high school i went to disney land and eventually shopped at the disney store for souvenir and stuff.and then, i saw  mannyyyy pair accesories for couples.there were phone's straps,necklace rings etc.unfortunately i don't have a partner at that time to share this wonderful pair accesories.
the next day at school i saw a guy friend of mine who bought those pair phone straps that i saw yesterday (a mickey and minnie strap,i know it's cute) and put both of them on his cellphone!!lmao!!!he was single and knew that it was meant for couples.the most shocking thing is, that those straps aren't cheap!!they are like 2000 yen(20$) !!it's an expensive price to pay for a mere highschooler!!!lol!!!!

now that i have someone to give those wonderful pair accesories i am now confused on what to give.

a ring is impossible because even if i know he's ring size it would be best if i buy it with him!and since it's impossible, a ring is a no no (plus why is it so fucking expeeeeennnsiiiiivvee!!!)

i looked up for necklace and there were some of them who caught my eye,and they were in my wallet range.But in my country a guy who were necklace is a bit hmmm.,.they will be looked either gay or narcistic,so it's a no no. plus yesterday i just asked him what would happen if i gave him a necklace and he was like "okay i can put it in the car's wheel miror thingy" wtf?!?!?!if he doesn't want to just say so darling.love you!!

a phone strap is okay.but it doesn't look intimate and romantic since it is put on a phone.i want him to wear it!!
this left me with bracelet.i looked up on it on the internet and they were expensive!the price is over 10000 yen(100$) which i can afford it but that seems silly!
and then i was wondering.what if i made it myself?!?!?!hell yeah!!!i can just make it myself!!it will be original,i can choose the color and stuff plus i bet he will be happy since it is hand made and it's only just one over the world!!fuck yeah!!!!
and here i am confused on what color should i make?!the same color?!or different?!
so i want to ask guys out there especially indonesian. what would you think of a guy wearing a necklace (since it is the first thing that i want to buy)
and for girls,should i make the bracelet's color different or matching?!
i reaaaallly would appreeciate anyone who answer my questions on the chatbox on the right of this page.


please help meeeee T_T

HAPPY NEW YEAAARRRR!!!!!!!woohooooo!!!!!welcome 2013!!!this is the time to look back 2012 and to think of new resolutions on 2013!!
I just spent the new year in my friends  house playing cards, Winning Eleven on ps3 and juon on wii!!
and we also watched 笑ってはいけない (waratteha ikkenai) it's a comedy tv show aired only on the new year about five guys who goes to random places (like school,hotel etc) and if laughed get hit in the ass.so like japanese who comes up with random tv shows.

but before that i went to the hotspring resort on Odaiba (a part of tokyo) it's a hotspring in a giagantic building.This resort doesn't just offer hotspring but also restaurants,massage chair,spa,sauna,facial,body massage etc.i bet the girls looove this place

The first time entering the building,we need to take off our shoes and put it in a locker (very japanese like,and honestly it smells when i went to the shoe locker lol!!!not my shoes!!!!my shoes doesn't smell!!!)

after that we received a bracelet with a barcode and a key on the reception.we need the barcode in the bracelet to every payment in the resort (smart isn't it?we don't need to bring our pursue everywhere and people will buy more) and we need the key to open the locker which we put all our belongings.
we can choose the yukata we have to wear in the resort.
after puting my things on the locker and changed to a yukata i entered the main hall which is full of restaurants,games,shops etc. it looks like a japanese festival but indoor.

the hotspring is greeeeaaatttt!!!!!there is the massage hotspring, the normal hotspring with water that is great for the skin (can't remember what is it) there's also a hotspring outdoor, and sauna. the sauna is awessooommeee!!looovvee it!!!

anyway after entering the hotspring my skins gets verrrryyyy verrrryyy smooothhh!!!!and clean!!!!really like the place!!!!

for those who already knows about japanese hotspring or who is about to go, i really recomend using the product provided in the hotspring!!especially hotspring which many people goes.because many great and very expensive products promote in the hotspring.and when you go to a hotspring you can use these products all you wantttt!!!!!!!and FREE!!!!amasing isn't it!!!!
i used a bunch of their product and as a result my skin was glowing and very smooth like a baby's ass!seriously!!!

really wanna go there again next year !!
the price?it's reasonable,only 3000 yen!!but the shop's and restaurant has a higher price than normal.

i really recommend this place especially to girls!!
hope you add this to your "must go place" list for 2013!!
once again HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!